Wednesday, January 26, 2011
Internet down again...
In few days ONLY.
Alot of things happens.
On Wednesday,i found my room window opens,i suspect someone aim my house!
Hmmm...
I was hoping to study again.student life.My brain karat soon.
On friday i went register.
before i go out dad says don't go study 1st,wait another half year but my cousin was outside my house already.*on the 1st place u push me to study but why now u tell me this?*(on my mind)
bla bla bla...DONE.
then came back take a short nap.suddenly piang piang piang..
I thought there's a burglar coming in.
when i rush out from my room my dad wanted to suicide.
Don't it seems like he blackmail me?
If u don't want me to go then just tell don't threaten me.
I'm speechless.I know how to cry only.i don't know what should i do.
crying whole evening.
Friday Night,everyone came back.dad wanted to talk to us.we gather and talk.
he wanted all of us to vote,should i go study now or wait another half year.
Yes,i really disagree when i think of my future.What if it's not only half month,years?
when comes to my future thingy,i don't know will i marry a good man,he might be good but human changes.What if i have children and my salary only 1 thousand?
i wrote in my dairy past few years,when i 22 or 23 i must graduate and have a stable job.That's my goal.
Why I'm rushing to graduate because of this.
The Votes
Sis is the justice,she said i wasted 2 years and i shouldn't waste time anymore.
Mum also said the same thing.
Bro turns,he ask me out and talk to me.a short conversation.He says i think u should take care of dad and Maybe this is the last half year.Okay.Shocked!
what can i do now,what he said it's true!
It's really obvious,what i vote.
Then i can't stop again. T.T
Whole day T.T
Next day my eyes like gold fish.
Yesterday.
we was wondering why he sleep at night with light on.
my aunt help mum go temple then ask god.
and now we know why.
Actually 'something' on his body control him to commit suicide.
Night saw 'something'.
and alot of bad news.
I'm afraid of losing him.
My aunt told me,actually if touch wood anything happen mu mum will follow also.
Speechless again.
I DON'T WANT TO LOSE ANYONE.
but I no good in expressing.i wanna let u know i love u mum & dad.
but i couldn't.like there's something stuck on my throat.
Long post!sorry!Haha!
Friday wanna call u all accompany me but scare disturb u all.signs,i didn't receive any signal go out.Get what i mean?Haha!
Updated@5:56 PM
