butterfly

2011-12-14T10:38:00.002+08:00

oh yeah,presentation sudah over..

tomorrow last paper.

HAHAHA!

sarah lee kesian 23 Dec baru habis :P

2011-12-14T10:33:00.002+08:00

I don't know what happen to my shoulder.suddenly pain,i have a feeling that my bone gonna .........

hopefully,it will recover as soon as possible...

okay.it's a mistake.

i accepted the job for one day.and suddenly it extended!

so,i dunno what should i do now.

ahem......

2011-10-30T23:10:00.001+08:00

It's kinda annoying.

i know what should i do.

you hurt me with your word.

Thank you!

2011-10-29T14:41:00.002+08:00

I won!unexpected!Gillian called the wrong name.

and on my mind i was wondering who is her designer.which team?

still very blur,until the crew called my name..then only i realize i won!

hahahhaa!but the happy moment only last for few hours because of the stupid presentation on monday!

potong betul!

obviously i don't have enough time to do my preparation!

and im shaking in front of everyone!

like dancing?hahahaha...

the worst part is,i been distracted by a group of girls,

that doing the same topic !

even though,some of us doesn't present it well,doesn't mean u can kutuk us and laughing behind...

no respect at all!

but,our marks higher than them.

after presentation~celebrate at subway!

tuesday~sushi king.

wednesday~pasar malam(nasi lemak + yo yo ice)

friday~BBQ plaza.

ended up ,sakit perut!

hahhahahahah!

hmmmm,somemore got what i belum makan?fat die me :DDD

2011-10-11T16:49:00.002+08:00

On the way to college.i belief everyone will turned on the radio.

1 of the female DJ said the song is nice and she liked it...

she said that nice song but don't watch the MV..and it's bad....

people like me,so curious.sure u know what will i do..

I youtube it...

Front of the mv is normal.nothing is bad about.but after that there is a disgusting moment...

and finally i know why the DJ advised not to view it.....

=.=ll

2011-10-10T15:25:00.003+08:00

Okay.I'm fine!!!

just tell me if u really interested.

i really thanks those really responsible.i like u.

those,just disappear.thanks for making me so 'proud of u'.

Thank you very much!

@#$%&

2011-10-10T15:25:00.002+08:00

Okay.I'm fine!!!

just tell me if u really interested.

i really thanks those really responsible.i like u.

those,just disappear.thanks for making me so 'proud of u'.

Thank you very much!

2011-09-29T18:08:00.002+08:00

Okay~~~exam over!

but but but,the what i revision didn't come out ...

thought case studies sure will got but none!NONE!

Damn !why no case studies one...kanasai!

2011-09-27T11:50:00.002+08:00

Fuichhh...

busy busy busy~!!

thursday got exam...yesterday only inform me!

last minute,how to study and aim higher?

i'm not superman la!kanasai!

FINE!

I don't have enough time!give me more! :D

2011-09-16T15:23:00.002+08:00

OH HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MYSELF!

hahahha!

Great day,long day and rain day!

LOL...

photoshoot with the kiss of nyamuk!hahahaha...

enjoy it very much,not the nyamuk of course!

JAM here JAM there!

finally i reached home..was excited for the celebration...

but after reaching start to feel sleepy...

anyway,i appreciated the birthday celebration and all the birthday wishes!

sorry,actually i totally out of battery but i pretended i dunno anything but i know what are u doing!

hahahahha...too bad la...

i forgotten to act surprise!hahahha

ahem,im not a good actor :P

Anyway THANKS for the celebration!

errrm,i will remember what happen yesterday?!heehee!!!

wait for it ya my darlinggggggggggggg!!!!!!!!!!

ngek ngek ngek *evil*

battery low but brain still function~~~

WAHAHAHAHA!!!

2011-09-12T17:49:00.002+08:00

It will be a very busy sem!

first lesson damn boring la!

theory for the whole sem...

shit till burst!

argh!2moro class sucks! 3 ~6 >>>sangat JAM!!!!

2011-09-08T15:40:00.002+08:00

My laptop ...fever become dengue ad...

visited doctor few times ad..

BUT,no hope...

my car lack of energy again.old ad.who wanna sot dian with my car?need a female car ah..

HAHAHAHA!!!

how i wish the plan still go on...haizzzz...disappointed la.

GOD please help!

2011-09-04T00:05:00.000+08:00

Any new place for me to breath?

2011-08-24T22:47:00.003+08:00

I WANNA GROW TALLER!!!!
still can grow or not?
haizzzzzzzzzzzzzzz...

2011-08-21T11:35:00.003+08:00

workshop...
erm,complicated feeling.
should i feel happy or not.
hmmmm,please dun hate me.
yeah, competition is competition.
doesn't mean competition = enermy right?

sometime u get a good comment but doesn't mean everyone will happy for u.
started to hate.
no body will sincere to u,especially here.
only non-living things will not hate me :)
even they hate the facial expression still the same,constant.

communicate with human are hard.don't talk much people will say too ego or sluts.
but communicating is fake.
oh human,we must learn how to butter up people,sweet words and all the good thing.

can't i say whats on my heart?u don't like a person but u will express like u like them very much?
confuse. @.@

Tomorrow will be the 1st meeting.pray for me!i hope is a good thing.
welcome me with ur sincere heart!

2011-08-19T17:47:00.002+08:00

Hope what i decided is good for me and they will welcome me sincerely.

Yes i always wanted to join but is really unexpected this is the way i joined the team.

Hmm,I'm afraid of miscommunication,whatever i say nobody get it.

combo miscommunication will kill me to the max!

Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.

next chapter~

busy day coming soon :)

2011-08-17T22:15:00.002+08:00

Ain't in a good mood.
tak dapat balance.

i hate my surrounding.
it's always there.

no matter where i throw my seeds there will be a line to separate it.
hahahaha...
what should i say.

a very good one.
i don't know how to do the keeping.
hahahhaha..... T.T

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

busy day,went to temple to pray.
even i went there alone,but i know they wish to be there too.
i do not know how to read the holy book but hopefully u will rebirth again and in a good surrounding with wealth.
no more suffering for u.
I miss u very much.
I think i dreamt of u again last night :)

i choose the worst and best pencil for my dad to try.hahaha...funny dream :)

2011-08-12T15:34:00.002+08:00

STUPID EXAM!POSTPONE AGAIN!

butter up people?i dunno how to butter up people.
sweet talk?nope.
before i talk i will tend to swallow all my words and give no respond.

if responded too straight.people dun like.
so keep quiet~

2011-08-08T21:19:00.002+08:00

I like the cars so much!
i will never own that car in my life!
fuhhhhhhhhhhhhh!

Well,yesterday we had our romantic dinner!
The environment kinda nice and the old school feel.
~~~~~
face problem is common but mouth problem is something new for me!
someone say my ***** problem.sad ka!

and then we took some emo pic.

2011-07-30T21:16:00.002+08:00

I never felt like this before.
i never felt there is someone or few standing behind me.
i always thought that i was alone.
but i can feel it now!
anytime,anywhere they will come out from no where trying to save me.
Thank you very much for willing to help me!
When u says you wanna help me out!and u all willing to wake up so early.
really touched my heart!

But i guess u all know me well.
I'm afraid to disturb u all!
hahahahaha!
Don't scold me! :)

2011-07-28T18:15:00.002+08:00

What a BIG BOMB i had today!

"Attention to my college friends, tomorrow have a moral test! just get the message from teacher..."

This is what someone posted on their status.What's your reaction?
well,i saw that in the morning.means today i got exam.i only left 2 hours!
I was really SHOCKED!and i haven't revise any of the moral topic
Rushing to library to study.Drive like crazy to saved up time so i can have more time to study.

When i reached!i opened up my laptop and study.then my friend told me.
Hey,just now i saw that person and says it was only a joke.

I was like WHAT?
JOKE?

If u wanna make joke i dun mind!
but at least the last comment u tell us "that was just only a joke"
WT?!
Fuhhhhhhhhhh!

2011-07-11T21:42:00.004+08:00

YOU!!!
you really made me felt uneasy with your attitude!
I quiet,i don't talk that is a signal that i fell very uneasy with your words and attitude!
I lazy right?then why is your assignment not done yet?i just don't stand up and pick it up is because i lazy?!if u loves the crowd attention then u go and pick up la.why ask me?
your assignment not done yet but we didn't comment anything and we just accept your reason but u?

I talk to my friend and my face turned red also u need to comment ar?
when i laugh and the surrounding is hot then turn red la...
as simple as that.
who do u think u are to comments all these?

This kind of people no need explanation,the more u explain the more she happy!

I don't fire u then don't burn up my fire.
I try to treat everyone as nice as possible but u .no more.u reaches my limit!

Ya la ya la u got bf tai sai la.
if anyone attack u.u have you bf to revenge back and u wanna slap everyone also can right?do u ever ask yourself,do u have the rights to slap anyone?
even my mum never slap me!do u have the rights?

1 month more!i will never see u in my next sem already!thank god!
i just can't wait to kick u out from my life!
After this sem,i will treat u invisible!

2011-07-05T22:39:00.002+08:00

Today is my dad's birthday and also 100 days.
so ngam right.hmmmmmmmmmm...

woke up early in the morning,after everything done then straight went to college.
exam.bla bla bla.
class.....my brain stuck!
my brain become smaller and smaller.
haizzzzzz...
kek sim~

2011-06-26T00:47:00.002+08:00

So sia sui today~~~
Nervous.
hopeless...
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!

Ate too full until vomited some cake out...ewwwwwwwwwwwwww!!!

2011-06-24T09:51:00.003+08:00

FUHHHHHHHHH...
Never expect to high~
I believed there will be a bunch of them.... T.T
Fairytale?no no no not gonna happen.

Busy for assignment~~~
Almost done the second one,and left one more!HAHAHAHAHAHA!!!
Efficient but do it contain quality? T.T
I'm fear,my part doesn't contain quality and the marks will be like .........
Sorry if my problem.......

2011-06-14T22:59:00.001+08:00

1st week.
assignment =.=ll

i don't know what is in my brain.
ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!

2011-06-13T22:34:00.001+08:00

Unexplainable!

too deep~

2011-06-08T22:48:00.003+08:00

well,today suppose to be the orientation day~

the actual orientation is June 1st not 8?no no the correct one on 10th!

What a stupid day!

Simon said is on 8 of June when i reached there he told me is on 1st of June.*my mistake or urs?*
and today is the actual class.u should go to 2nd floor and check it out.okay,i will check it out.Thanks.*What The Hell?*

Okay,girl Am so sorry because the marketing people doesn't know the date.There's no one inform u?NO!okay,i will help u out!

Fine!Luckily I'm not the only one got this kind of problem.
There's another guy same problem as mine,and well,he brought his dad.
His dad do the scolding,and i was listening all the argument.Ha Am i bad today?I'm chill today.
other people do the job for me :P

fill up those form and u can go now.come on 10th of June.+.+
stupid.my parking fees,petrol and toll!pay me!T.T

Fuhhhh,if my dad still alive,I'm sure my dad gonna scold them terribly~
My dad will wake me up for school and he will fill water for us.
but everything is different now~

Appreciate what u have now!it will be very late when u really realize it!don't makes things realize u,u make urself realize when u have it~

2011-05-29T23:43:00.004+08:00

HELLO is a lame word!i know i know.hahaha...
err,just don't feel like letting people read what i've posted!
no worries,non of my friend and enermy!HAHAHA!

some sad moments la,just don't feel like letting anyone know.

Okay,I'm Really Nervous!

When i saw these words in someone blog,suddenly feels like whats she said is true!

"miracle doesnt exist in the world...LOL!

life doesnt come that easy..."

i stalked the wall and website already.

ALOT of PRETTY women! T.T

Thousands fight for 20 places!

FUHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!

2011-05-28T01:02:00.001+08:00

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2011-05-28T01:00:00.002+08:00

2011-05-23T22:53:00.002+08:00

Love~

Is like something temporary in our lives.
Whether it last long or broken or gone.

Love will never promise u happiness.
no matter how hard u fight for it,it will still hurting u no matter in what way.
every couple will argue for some stuff.in the end,whether u getting marry or breaking up?
breaking up?meeting someone new?the same cycle will happen all over again.

both side giving up?or one side? *Ding Dong*Ding Dong* It's time to break up!

Marry?arguing for so many years at last they married~
But will they stop arguing?nah!career?money?kids?love?a harmony home?all coming up next!

something i was thinking why we need love?

Recently,saw a lot of things.

Lovely couple breaking up.long term relationship GONE.
The funnies thing is short term relationship getting marry~
what on earth is happening now?
=.=

wanna keep a relationship?Okay make urself pregnant!That's the way~ O.O

So many years,still i don't know how or what to keep a relationship.

After everything happens,i felt like the person that i loves will one by one gone in my life.
Karma?everything seems like kept on repeating~
I fear now.i should keep a distance between someone i love?
being selfish,run away from them?

how i wish i'm insane!have nothing to think,happy everyday!
doesn't know what's the meaning of love~
whether it gone or stay or whatever,I'm not gonna hurt.

I guess,i will locked up my heart again :)

2011-05-08T22:39:00.002+08:00

earlier in the morning woke up went to so many places.
bought cake ,medicine,small kiddo garfiel and petrol .
after that have lunch with my friends.
owh weather !
it's a sunny day!DAMN HOT!

and the weather is still HOT at night!what happened now!am i staying at desert?

2011-05-05T17:34:00.002+08:00

I don't know what happened to my lovely phone!

The messages that i deleted for a month ad.
suddenly POP up.

makes me .............Araghhhhh...
forget about it!

2011-04-28T17:17:00.002+08:00

1 month.
what can i say.facts.accept it.
there's no miracle in this world.

stop believing.and go on what should it be.
the person that loved me, never betray and always by my side has gone to somewhere far.
dad i miss u!all of us do.

we never have this chance anymore to call u,ah pa.

R.I.P

2011-04-13T16:45:00.002+08:00

Not motivated!
tired!
short term memory!
only few seconds forgot everything.
eyes like blind!
seems like my brain not functioning anymore.

sometime when i have free time i think of u...
things that u told me.
when i was kids till now.i never think i will lost u in this young age.
i never thought my wedding day no body gonna walk me down to the aisle.
i know how u wish to see your grandchildren.but none of us marry yet.
...
i don't know should i say i'm lucky that i dream't of u and one day before u leave us i be by your side whole day even u couldn't chat with me anymore,
when u opened up your eyes,silly me,look at u and smile with all my teeth..
u didn't talk but u brushed my hair with ur right hand.
i know u love me dad.mum said u sayang me the most.

i know u hear us calling u to wake up,we saw ur last tear but still u never wake up.
I told myself not to be so selfish because u suffering from pain.
but we missing u badly!

2011-04-07T09:18:00.002+08:00

take a deep breath~~~

let's just close one eye,i don't wanna let the devil to control me...

i forgot 2 things...

Firstly,thanks to all of u that coming to my dad funeral.really appreciated it.thank you very much!

second,i forgot someone birthday today.sorry ya.normally will sms at night,unless i wait till fall asleep.1st time being so blur and my mind like floating.

Alone at home,nobody call nobody laying on the bed anymore...

people said on the 7th day,my dad will come back but i can't feel it.he will come back doing what he normally do but then i can't feel it at all...is it the sai kong luan luan pray until my dad didn't come back?

I dreamt of him,he's healthy now.only me dream of him.

dad knows mum will cry if dad let mum dream...

2011-04-06T15:08:00.002+08:00

The 7 th day.
time flies like nobody business.
seems like im sleeping and had a terrible nightmare.

how i wish i wake up from nightmare and everything remain the same...
but this is the reality.

once there's nobody around talking or nobody accompany.suddenly i will ask myself.
is this real?

the world look darker these few days.even the world is so dark but i don't understand why some people wanna made our world even darker?

i will settle it,don't keep on ask ask ask...

i called them yesterday,today they replied me...

u know what they said?nothing to be rush.

u as a outsider why u care so much?
because if we lost everything then u all happy is it?

i know how to settle,not even 7 th day u wan me to visit people place?
and u know all those pantang thing but u keep on ask?

oh relative relative...what should i say~~~

even people that not the same blood also will feel for us but u all...

no eye see

2011-04-03T15:06:00.003+08:00

My father just passed away few days go...
u should know how emotional i am...

so please don't talk talk talk...

my father just gone,so can u shut up don't use ur f***ing mouth say my mum useless and underestimated us?what the f**k u want?

father's side relative = money faces!
purposely came our house talk rubbish then went grandma house don't know bullshit what!
why ur mouth cannot stop kua ciong~ing and shut?

seriously,u underestimated our family even my father still alive..
don't be stupid,my dad don't like u all too...OK!
we respect u but please stop bla bla bla...
if u bla again...i won't give u face and respect u!

our family already very fan,so be more considerate!
I will show u!don't test my patient!i lost everything,my patient level is reducing!

2011-04-02T17:27:00.001+08:00

Owh,my lovely backbone.
i hope u will not broke to two piece!

my backbone started to pain 1 month ago but then it seems like getting worst!

my body ain't healthy!
i need to protect my body and starts to appreciate it.
i don't wanna my 20 or 30 like a 60 old lady.

SO!!!!!!remind me not to drink COLD drinks!
T.T

2011-03-24T14:23:00.003+08:00

there's so many questions i wanna ask there's so many answer i wanna know~

but non of that will be answer and question~~~

Avril Lavigne - Push

2011-03-24T14:21:00.001+08:00

Avril Lavigne - Wish You Were Here (Lyrics on Screen) NEW FULL SONG

2011-03-24T14:17:00.001+08:00

Avril Lavigne - 4 Real (Official Music/Full Song) HQ with Lyrics

2011-03-24T14:00:00.001+08:00

Avril Lavigne - Darlin (Official Music/Full Song) HQ with Lyrics

2011-03-24T13:29:00.001+08:00

2011-03-24T13:15:00.001+08:00

2011-03-21T00:16:00.002+08:00

He started to forget thing...memories...

he told me he can't remember anything...

I asked him who am i?*my daughter*
which one?*last one*
what's my chinese horoscope?*thinking~~~and he answered sheep* smile on his face :)
then ah jie le?*he think very very long*he said why i seems like forgot alot of thing?
we skip then what about ah kor?*he still can't get it*
Then mummy le?*RAT*without thinking~~~
i tease him,u remember ur girlfriend only ah...
even mine u also need to think for a while ah!

he smile :)

Maybe i take care of him that's why he remember mine...

talk to me and sleep here...i asked him why he said he fear he will suddenly gone!

my aunty came today then mum talk talk talk till cry...it's not the 1st time...
then luckily my brother still realized and straight went to room and talk to him...

but my sis?she don't even care...ya maybe she dunno why mum cry and i purposely tell her what's happening...
but she not even talk or see him...

dad asked me why never see her these few days?
even he sick till like that but in his brain only us...nothing is more important than us...
i believed u heard what i repeated...he fear he suddenly gone...
but u?
is it game more important than u dad?

I don't understand u..

u're cruel!

What's inside ur heart and brain?
i felt like my family member cannot be trusted.

I don't know what they are thinking!

2011-03-14T23:54:00.001+08:00

Am i bad?

hopefully,not like what i thought...

Im not ready in anything yet...

2011-03-13T01:05:00.004+08:00

Recently im kinda bad temper...

maybe because the stress around me never come to an ends...
after one issue settled then there will be another one...
Sincerely i really fed up with everything and i felt like giving up but when i saw her so suffering i couldn't just leave it like that...

come on,i really or WE really don't know what u really want...
everyone is fighting for u but u never wanna try or giving up...

u tried for few times then u said that's not gonna works...
walao...sian tan meh?

can u be more patients?
If u are not patients enough,who is suffering?
EVERYONE~~~

i try to tell myself im not gonna make myself regret,and whenever im gonna burst i try to talk to myself...
It's alright,not ur fault,maybe the viruses have gone through ur brain...

but sometime i really wanna give up u...
i know i shouldn't say this but i dunno why i will feel like that...

i know u care of me more than them but i really dunno why i will feel like this...
I wonder is it im abnormal or cruel or something?
Why i will feel like that?what happened to me?
haizzzzz...
how i wish im in japan now...
i will be resting in peach without thinking of this issue again...

Fuuuuuuhhhhhhhhhhhh~~~

Everyone of us is face obstacles,nobody can run away from god's obstacles whether u wanna suffer now or later?(now)..if we fight till the end we might deserve a good life or good fortune in future...this is what everyone hoping for especially those who is facing a huge obstacle and trying to hold on and trying not to give up...so called as 'an wei'~~~

2011-03-11T12:38:00.004+08:00

Scolded us to update blog but she private her blog...
SWEAT KA!!!

This blog is open to invited readers only

http://freedomcoolsun.blogspot.com/

SAD KA!!!
Joann Tan,I'm not invited?give back my heart...hng!

Hate u :P nah dun wan ur heart anymore,take away~~~ XDDD

2011-03-05T01:05:00.002+08:00

Someone scolded US for not updating blog...

NOW I UPDATE!!!

Since i gave u my heart and u gave me urs...
I should take care of it carefully and without break it...
My heart is fragile and i know urs too...
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
I hope i have ur stone heart too...
BUT i already had one...
I'm not gonna break her heart coz im loyal...
Sorry HEART OF STONE!i can't have u~~~

Updated!more than 2 words...and the gelies moments for u both to VOMIT!!! XD
Joann and Sarah u may go to the toilet now...
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!

2011-02-25T17:01:00.002+08:00

Previously i did say u are a complicated person!
and know i made myself complicated ...
Funny right...

and now u lecturer me back...Hahahaha!

u are right,i fear of changes...

actually i cried when i tells the truth...

HAHAHAHA!!!

I guess u dunno :P

Thanks Mr D :)

Hopefully,i will~~~

林隆璇&李聖傑-妳那麼愛他

2011-02-24T15:36:00.002+08:00

2011-02-17T22:59:00.002+08:00

I viewed my previous posts...

is it my life so bad?

i felt like whatever i want and loved gone one by one?

why i can't keep any of them?

What have i done in my previous life?or what have i done in my this life?

now i need to lose all i wanted?

why all bad things keep happening in my life?

life sucks!

2011-02-17T22:09:00.002+08:00

I missed out a lot of thing i guess...

It's really hurt!when i saw those posts...

I have lost someone i loved because of misunderstanding and i don't know how should i apology or that person still wanna forgive me or not...

until today im still hurt but i didn't say it out and i really REGRET...

i know what i wrote here ,definitely not related to u all.

I just don't want a misunderstanding separated all of us...

I don't wanna lose anybody that i love to spend my time with.

Almost 8 years and at least 6...we have spent so long and i'm glad that i have u all by my side when i need.

If i really lose u all,i really left nothing.

i never regret to have u all,all these time and these crazy moments...

I cheer u u cheer me...

and we even imagine after 10 years what we wanna do...

High tea,outing...and we wonder who is the 1st one get marry...

I just don't wanna lose my crazy frens...

i don't wanna do anything will make me regret in future and i hope u all too...

i don't know how important or not important me in u all life but for me,u meant a lot to me.

Whenever there's a outing with u all,most of the time u all cheer me up!

Thanks alot!

I appreciate that i have u girls :)

2011-02-11T19:55:00.002+08:00

Mum forgotten to bring back father's bag...

AND AND AND my PHONE IN THE BAG!!!!!!!

T.T

hopefully nobody gonna still away my phone!

That phone really IMPORTANT!!!

if the phone exchange with Iphone 4 or 5 ,i also don't want!

So please please,when i open up the bag tomorrow hopefully my phone still in the bag!

2011-01-26T17:56:00.004+08:00

Internet down again...

In few days ONLY.
Alot of things happens.

On Wednesday,i found my room window opens,i suspect someone aim my house!

Hmmm...
I was hoping to study again.student life.My brain karat soon.

On friday i went register.
before i go out dad says don't go study 1st,wait another half year but my cousin was outside my house already.*on the 1st place u push me to study but why now u tell me this?*(on my mind)
bla bla bla...DONE.

then came back take a short nap.suddenly piang piang piang..
I thought there's a burglar coming in.
when i rush out from my room my dad wanted to suicide.
Don't it seems like he blackmail me?
If u don't want me to go then just tell don't threaten me.
I'm speechless.I know how to cry only.i don't know what should i do.
crying whole evening.

Friday Night,everyone came back.dad wanted to talk to us.we gather and talk.
he wanted all of us to vote,should i go study now or wait another half year.
Yes,i really disagree when i think of my future.What if it's not only half month,years?
when comes to my future thingy,i don't know will i marry a good man,he might be good but human changes.What if i have children and my salary only 1 thousand?
i wrote in my dairy past few years,when i 22 or 23 i must graduate and have a stable job.That's my goal.
Why I'm rushing to graduate because of this.

The Votes
Sis is the justice,she said i wasted 2 years and i shouldn't waste time anymore.
Mum also said the same thing.
Bro turns,he ask me out and talk to me.a short conversation.He says i think u should take care of dad and Maybe this is the last half year.Okay.Shocked!
what can i do now,what he said it's true!
It's really obvious,what i vote.
Then i can't stop again. T.T
Whole day T.T
Next day my eyes like gold fish.

Yesterday.
we was wondering why he sleep at night with light on.
my aunt help mum go temple then ask god.
and now we know why.
Actually 'something' on his body control him to commit suicide.
Night saw 'something'.
and alot of bad news.
I'm afraid of losing him.

My aunt told me,actually if touch wood anything happen mu mum will follow also.
Speechless again.
I DON'T WANT TO LOSE ANYONE.
but I no good in expressing.i wanna let u know i love u mum & dad.
but i couldn't.like there's something stuck on my throat.

Long post!sorry!Haha!

Friday wanna call u all accompany me but scare disturb u all.signs,i didn't receive any signal go out.Get what i mean?Haha!

2011-01-07T10:34:00.002+08:00

Since after so long,finally i have time to blog...

ahem...
HappY New Year!even though i know is kinda late but better than never...

hahahaha!

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Thanks to her that accompany me that night!
sorry for the late appreciation! :P
I enjoyed my night dancing like crazy~~~
HAHAHAHA!!!
what she told me is really true and i can see that...

She said i try to pretending~~
If only u give away something is equal to you're neutral ..
my brain says throw away but my heart says keep it...
when someone came and wanted to claim it away,i don't feel like giving..
i understand now~~~

2010-12-24T11:11:00.002+08:00

She's going to tanjung karang...
why u dun wanna ask her take care of dad?

she is there what~
she can't take care of him is it?
why u need to go there?
what kind of bull shit is that?

because her bf also there?
then drop both of u there they go other place?enjoy?
then at night enjoy too?

why everything must only me take care!?
ur elder daughter should take care of it what?
why all the responsible on me?
she will cooperate with me?
the sky gonna rain red rain...if she cooperate...

xmas eve new year eve...close 1 eye also know she will go out!
im sure!
i already sacrifice my xmas then what do u all wan from me now?
u can enjoy i can't is it?
everything me me me me me!
I'm BURST!!!
DAMN YOU!!!

2010-12-20T23:58:00.007+08:00

been busy this month...
accompany dad to tanjung karang everyday!!
i will definitely fall sick~~~
Recently easily felt cold even without air cond...
and i don't know what happened to my temper ...

17 december

It's Jane birthday!
went to 1utama...

watch horror movie...u can imagine what's my reactions...
just a louder sound effect...
and this is the 1st night i VOMIT!!!
Twice summore...
all the food that i ate all came out...
ewwww!!!i dun like it!

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19 december

It's a rainy day~i still remember last year 19 december it's a heavy rain day...
i still remember that time been spending time searching in a heavy rain...
hmmmm~~~

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today 20th ...
i don't know why...
the more i see u the more i ..... !

When i wanted to post this out...
my brother off the modem...
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

sorry ya..cant continue chat~~~

2010-11-25T16:54:00.002+08:00

Christmas Mode ON!!!

I loves Christmas~
who wanna celebrate with me?
WHO WHO WHO???

i guess everyone have their own plan~~~

haizzzzzzzzzzzz...

guess i need to find someone to accompany me~~~

but what i hoping for is someone that i ..........

will u?or been booked? T.T

hmmmm~~~

2010-11-05T16:23:00.001+08:00

no more thing needed to be regret if u done ur part~~~

U tried ur best then that's it~~

2010-11-05T16:22:00.000+08:00

why you can't raise your voice to say~~~

by Chai Lynn on Wednesday, November 3, 2010 at 11:26pm

3 words to start a conversation…how are you?hey,what’s up? Are you there?

BUT what have stopped you from starting a conversation? ?*think before you do something*okay,think think think…

finally,the brain shows the answers,that person busy,he/she doesn’t not want to talk to you,hate you and lastly,might think that you annoy them..ends up,you waiting for that person to talk to you first.

what if, that person think the same way you think?or the worst part is when there’s a fire lighten up needed your help to call 911 but you are still waiting…

the most amazing things in this world are all BURNED because of waiting,now everything GONE,regret?…

you know the worst part,but still you waiting?WHY?WHY?!WHYYYYY?!!

it just a simple 4 words,I have zero COURAGE!!~

Speak up before it's too late~~~

malas wanna type again :P just copy and paste from fb :)

2010-10-30T13:10:00.002+08:00

DAMN!!!

why am i so SHORT!!!minimum requirement 165cm!!!

RM 7000 only 1 day....Malay or Thai mix!kanasai!~why dun wan chinese?NEXT!!!

Indian magazine ,of course for indian.....I'm not Next~~!

Fair girl......NEXT!!!!!

Models: Photo-shoot models height 152cm and above only.

We require models who are above 18 years of age.

*must be able to work well with the photographer, hard working.

owh i have a chance,manatau .... Indian Female Models needed For a Photo-shoot with an upcoming magazine which is launching on Diwali day nationwide..

ter-KEK!!

ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!

2010-10-28T15:46:00.002+08:00

Fuuuuhhh...

dilemma~~~

when i looking at bracelet,suddenly there's one stranger talk to me...

I was shocked,that fellow asked me whether i work at KLCC or not...

then he ask me do i work like pc fair,contact lens or anything at klcc...

ask about my height...

and all the bla bla...

actually he wanted to ask for my number then maybe he saw i was still fear of him...

then he gave me his number ...he ask me to send him profile...and he gave me his company name but i forgotten already...

how to check and should i call him?

i asked for his name card but he told me,he came to genting for holiday...

hmmmmm~~~~~~~

if he is the real then i might success in my career,if he is not then i might get cheat...

haizzzzzzzzzzzzz...

2010-10-23T21:35:00.001+08:00

will be away for 2 days...
I'm worried...

i dunno why am i always worry this and that...
can i stop worry?

sometime i even worry until i myself pissed...

2010-10-20T20:26:00.002+08:00

Working for 3 days :)

not office job la...something like event job...

errr,nice to meet the people there...
Quite friendly and fun...
My group members was quite funny and fun...crazy~~~ :P

by the way,there is a competition...my group won :D

i thought the boss just wanna pay me then can chao liao...mana tau...he approached me...what the SHIT!

really made me disappointed...

u as a fren of mine,if u have motive then tell me,discuss with me before u threw me into a ocean...at least i know how should i handle...even the last 5 seconds or whatsoever...i dun wanna be donkey!respect me!really disappointed...if u threw me once then do u think i will working with u again?even u call me for yam cha,i will try to hide myself from u...

2010-10-16T17:59:00.002+08:00

Whatever i wanna say is in this version...i posted the other version in fb...dunno is the same meaning or diff..but is not important now...the facts wont change...loving a person is hard for me but to forget a person,is like the fire burning u for few years~~~fear to post this version...

2010-10-08T18:35:00.003+08:00

went to temple just now...

dad accidentally kicked the chair and almost fall down...

luckily my grandma was beside him...

I really almost got heart attack!

He cannot eat meat and oil for 1 week...
vegetarian...

no oil no fish everything NO!

I also dunno what should i cook for him...

no idea...

only can eat biscuit...

seeing he hungry for 1 week...
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
should i say sorry?what if that person hate me?
i dunno what to do...
will that person forgive me?
T-T
There's a lot of question mark in my brain~~~

2010-10-08T10:20:00.001+08:00

This lappie is kinda stupid!can't move to center like always...haizzzzzzzzz....

Now,i really dunno what should i say actually...
1st college?hahahahaha!!!forget it la!just forget it about further studies...
dun wanna think of this anymore...maybe it's really a FATE!!!

when my mum was young,she actually a clever person and she have 8 siblings.everyone waiting for food and not enough money to feed them because of that my mum know how grandma suffering from working ..she decided to help my granma when she was year 3 in primary but then when she grown up ...everybody underestimate her even after married ,most of my father side family member underestimate her too..

so she always taught us education is very important ,u must study till degree no matter what..just dun let anyone underestimate u all..mum have a bad experience so dun wanna us repeat the same mistake.my mum stupid so they said the daughters and son also same like mum!after my brother graduate they SHUT!my brother is the 1st in family graduate in degree ...I'm here not to underestimate them..the reason why i wanna study college and everything is because i dun wan anybody to underestimate me and my mum...

now dad not feeling well...how can i left my dad here and continue study if I'm gonna stay outside?...(ignored the person that said wanted to help me)If i choose to study,who gonna cook for my dad?if he fall down?nobody knows...big responsible...working is way better than study...at least mum and i can look after him...If anything happened on my ....... then i think i will not forgive myself...i thought he's okay but he suddenly not that active and sleep the whole day and 1 day eat once only...like the 1st time he went for chemo...

I am in this situation,is hard for me to choose...whether i wan my life to be more luxury or my family...i dun wanna regret if i lose something when I'm not spending my time with...i just dun wanna REGRET!!!
I dun want anybody to underestimate me either ...
the most thing i fear is my future husband gonna divorce with me ...
yes,if i have my degree i have better pay check and no need count on my future husband...
relationship is very important in my life...when i born into earth,my parents busy working,searching for money,just for us to have a good life...left me with my granma..but what i want is caring and love!

sincerely,I'm lacking of parents love,so i told myself to find a bf that can take care of me and give me all his love and express it...i just need a person loved me fully like a pampered kid,even I'm not kid anymore but i wanna be a pampered gf...i guess this is a very hard request that i can achieve in my life...of course i need to love him as well...without my love i dun think i will accept him and spend my whole life with a person that i dun love...i just can't accept that...when i found then over again...people said they rather receive more than giving..i just can't do that...
being brain wash by someone and made a mistake = over!after found out,wanted to explain but i dunno it is acceptable or not?hate me?blur,what are we now?i dunno...haizzzzzzz.....

why my life become so complicated?why i can't live with a normal life?very fan!people love to brain wash then they laughing behind to see u sad...bian tai !!!is it fate??i can't continue my study because of fate?no fate with degree?my education line split to 2 line and very very the short...why these few years is all about healthy problem?parents suffering for 4 years?mum suffering from seeing dad unhealthy for few years and problem come again and again,i can feel her heart painfully even she acted nothing...

A thousand words i can't express,is all written here..I'm not a good story teller...i will break down..crying baby telling story...lol...im not a tough girl either ...easily fall...

2010-09-21T17:03:00.004+08:00

I really don't know whether that person really care of me or trying to fool around...

purposely pour a lot of oil build my fire~~~

When my fire reach to the max suddenly pour water~~~

trying to be angel~~~?

understand my feeling?

I really don't understand why that person wanna pour oil then water...

I can't see through that someone heart~~~

I really suffering~~~

that person smile and adding oil ...

what happening now?

What happening to the human now days?

purposely wanna make me feel complicated and unsure?

Or that person envy?

what actually that person want?

2010-09-20T19:24:00.000+08:00

Fuuuhhhhhh!!!

BROKEN!

T_T

2010-09-19T19:15:00.002+08:00

Yesterday play lantern with my sister's friends

Taman rakyat too dark.
so,went to grandma's house basketball court...

Play candles,made a love shape...this is what we always do...

Wishing for something~~~

suddenly,sis calling me~~come here...faster...

wandering???apa???

then 4 moon cakes with a candle in the middle...

Happy Birthday to u~~~

Hahahaha!

Thanks alot to all of them :)

new experience!

Moon cake as my birthday cake! :P

2010-09-16T16:26:00.002+08:00

Finally can use pc.....
Birthday Over~~~~!
i really thought we going out yam cha...
mana tau ai lene came in my house follow by sarah~~~
and someone said we 3 again go yam cha only~~
then i say ooooooo~~~~manatau~~~
Suddenly i saw something outside~~~
Really surprising,they brought the cake in my house...

Hahahaha!
Thanks to all of u !!!
i really appreciate it and surprise!

and and and~~~I will remember what u did to me sarah lee~~~

Be Carefulllllllll!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Then my family celebrate with me~~~

makan cake~ dua kali~~~
until my stomach gonna explode~~~

then ate medicine....
teruk jadi pig :)

there's 2 sad thing~the 1st one i can't follow them second round!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i have a lot of mushroom ad le.....
some more ask me sleeeeeeeeeeeeeepppppppppppppp~~~
haizzzzzzzzzzzzzz

2010-08-25T18:05:00.001+08:00

OKAY!!!i ter~~~perasaan !!!
I admit!=.=!!

but STOP LAUGHING!!!!
hahahahahaha!!!

Ailene i love u! XD

2010-08-25T00:01:00.003+08:00

okay,i guess u are saying me~~~
there's some misunderstand between me and u!

so,why not u just ask me straight forward?don't just guessing and sometimes things that u saw might not be true!

my blog sometime too straight and sometime i being mysterious because of some reasons!
If it's a happy thing i don't mind to share their name!

but it's the other way round i guess i need to respect people even though i don't like them!
instead of letting people know and affected he/she reputation!

And the person that i bo song it's not u!

the person i bo song is the one i argue with!

fuuuuuuh!

U know i never unhappy or don't appreciate u all!

If i never then i wouldn't ask u all go to i city to take picture to keep it as our memory!

if there's one day,we really separated for some reason but at least we do have pictures to flash back!

When i lost all my friends,u all are there for me!I believed i told u all ad!

Even though u are in a relationship and I'm single but still u accompany me for lunch and movie!even we both only!

previously i appreciated and now i will still appreciate!

i don't know u will believe or not but that's all i can do or say!

2010-08-24T18:38:00.002+08:00

Met my cousin brother!!!
hahahaha!
miss him a lot!!!

fuuuuuu!!!
his realllllly tall!
even taller than me!!! :(

Hmmmmm,we went to eng ann makan makan makan!
then watch movie at Harbour...

Hmmm,each mbo room have different decoration...

2010-08-20T18:02:00.002+08:00

ok...
everything turned upside down!
thought it will be a good day for me and u tomorrow!
Yeah, I'm waiting for tomorrow very very long already!

after i canceled it.
It even turned worst than i expected!
and there comes the argument!
i do regret when i canceled it.

after few messages it become misunderstanding!
it never turn up this way whenever he's coming.
This is the 1st time thing turned upside down!

I emo~ing!
u are right!
yeah,i don't like u say something like this!
now everything mess up!
fuuuuhhhhh!!!

I BO SONG U NOW!

whatever!
seriously,i don't wanna discuss about this issue!

2010-08-17T23:21:00.002+08:00

Actually i kinda hate her!
i still remember what she did to me!
i will never forget!!!
sorry coz i have a good memory!
sorry i can't or dont know how to delete it!

if its there it will be forever and ever there!
i dont know what will i do but for sure the hate for u is deeper than the core!

do not ask me who and what happened!
i do not wish to tell!

whatever worst happened once it will be stored forever!

whether u are my family members or what u don't have the rights to ask me!
something i have already decided,there's no body can stop me!

2010-07-28T10:43:00.004+08:00

I'm officially a DIPLOMA holder!!!

I'm so HAPPY!!

i collected my result on sunday!!
my mood was like scared +heart beating very fast ab type(abnormal)
when i reached the office ,i was so nervous!

Mr liew asked me sit but i really nervous!!i stand like stupid people after few seconds i entered the room~~~

Then he took 1 paper!!!my heart pumping even fast!!!then he said this is internal exam result!

i was like ceh!!

I wanna know external only la...(in my heart)

Then he continue ~~~

internal exam not really good!hahaha!!!
That time i was still playing like all other students!
not even care of exam!
I got 2 credit and 1 fail!!!
hahaha!!
ok!the most kan ciong moment!!!

EXTERNAL EXAM RESULT!!!

a piece of paper !1 A4 paper cut into 8~10 pieces!
u can imagine how was it!
they print it from the internet~~

he not even giving me but he read it out!Imagine how embracing was it if i fail + he very close to my sister and her friends!he made me more tension and stress!!
luckily the room just me and him...

he started but the last one really the most miserable one!
i fear i will fail that subject which is accounting!!!

The other two i predicted i will pass but don't know good or not!
the only subject can make my tears drop is only accounting!
no other subject!

he gave me hints then i kept on asking him i fail?i fail?i fail?
then he put the piece of paper on the table then when i looked!
my TEARS DROP!!!
hahahahahahahahahaha!!!
PASS!!!!!!!!!accounting!!!!!!

so happy!i really pass!!!im so happy!
even is not really great,thank god i pass!
if im not mistaken no body got distinction for accounting..

fuuhhhh!!!
I pass!!!!!YES!!!
accounting just like a jackpot for me!
the only i care is accounting!!!
I have pass my LCCI!!!

This is the piece of paper!!!
Muackssssssss!!!!!

2010-07-19T18:04:00.002+08:00

13 days didnt update...
Almost forgot about my blog :P

I don't know why this year so damn bad luck!

My Myob exam question is limited liabilities instead of partnership...
i know there's few mistakes !
i hate mistake!!
I don't know why i was born to be so careless !

Even if u give me a very simple exam,i will still do few mistakes!!!

Stupid!

but i know how to do..Just fed up with myself!

2010-07-06T00:15:00.003+08:00

Recently,kinda busy..
no time play games,chatting,update blog and bla bla..

Have to be nurse form now on...
need to take care of my dad...
it's not easy actually...
every 2 hours or less need to prepare food for him...
in 1 day i need to go my grandma house for 2 or 3 times to take food..

nobody can take care of him...
everyone is working..
just me...
Servant can't trusted!!!

where ever he goes.. up or down or outside...
i'll be following...
i scare he fall down...

if there;s anything happen to him..
even my family don't put any blame on me but i will blame myself...

Even i don't have time to spend with my friends but still I'm happy that seeing him happy and smile...
and not to forget i have less time to chat with u ...
Sorry :(
and actually im not really clear with your schedule,,,
scare to call when u're in the class...

the most happy thing is after few days of chemo finally he can eat well...instead of vomiting ...

besides that,I have decided not to continue study...
but from the bottom of my heart...
I really hope i will be in college after i get my result...
Happy Birthday daddy :)

we celebrated for him...
he's really happy :D

2010-06-13T17:37:00.004+08:00

Woah!!!

Just finished the second book --new moon!!!

Wahahahahahahahaha!!!

Little mou mou was bored recently...

because I'm not even entertain it after i started reading books...

It was really sad :(

hahahahaha...

Actually nothing to write ...

so just crapping :P

Happy Birthday :D

2010-06-05T00:07:00.001+08:00

I having such a long holiday!

I spent my time by reading books...

I just finished the 1st book --title Twilight!!!

continue tomorrow New Moon...

and another 2 books...

This is the 1st time i could finished such a thick book!!!

i never spend my time reading in secondary..

I'm addicted in reading especially Twilight saga...

I still remembered i used 4 months++ to finished the panas salji...

but this book took me 5 days to finished it!!!

When i woke up in the morning,after i brushed by teeth ..i start reading :P

Normally i will on computer start playing games but this is really unusual...

sudah jadi bookworm pulak!!

"Kononnya"

Wakakakkaa!!!

Guessed i'm really addicted :P

2010-06-02T19:46:00.002+08:00

Ginkgo...

Mum bought ginkgo for me because i had short term memory...

I asked her 1 stupid question...

Ah mee ar...u scare one day i don't know how to come back home?

her respond like .......... no la ...just scared u study so much then exam forgot everything...

i really thought my mum scare forget how to come back this house :P

2010-05-31T20:28:00.004+08:00

Having short term memory recently ...

I don't know why...

maybe because used to much brain or maybe after accident i become like this...

I will never let my parents know..

Scare they worry of me...

mom scared i burn her house =.=!!

Shouldn't think too much...

Kinda phobia after accident...

Whoever that fetch me and drive very HIONG and FAST ,u should ready to listen my sound effect!!!

WAHAHAHAHHAHA!!!

2010-05-28T17:51:00.006+08:00

Clubbing!~~

had a good night with the ladies xD

Had a great move after so long no dancing :P

we sing we dance we scream we laugh~~!!!

No vomit~~~not really drunk just high only~~~

BUT all i do is crying!!!

I realize something after clubbing and i'm gonna search for it!!

BUT do u think i can get it ?

NOPE!!!

i wouldn't get what i need badly~~~

2010-05-25T16:53:00.004+08:00

Wow...

There's a lot of thing happening on friday...

there's good and bad thing...

early in the morning,accidents and i got scared by the indian driver T.T

I cried for at least 2 hours ...

30 minutes crying while settling, 1 and half hours in exam...

can i pass my costing...

I'm not sure!!!

left another 1 and half hours,i answered 4 questions out of 5..

HMM~~~

in the afternoon i kinda blur case but i manage to make myself to smile~~

so,everyone will enjoy and happy :)

and yeah,i did enjoy and happy :D

Hmmm...Sarah congratz!!! :P

2010-04-29T22:18:00.000+08:00

A Sad story...

To those who are married, .. Not married .. and soon to be married, I hope you will be touched with this story... MARRIAGE When I got home that night as my wife served dinner, I held her hand and said, I've got something to tell you. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes. Suddenly I didn't know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want a divorce.. I raised the topic calmly. She didn't seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why? I avoided her question. This made her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man! That night, we didn't talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer; she had lost my heart to Dew. I didn't love her anymore. I just pitied her! With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company. She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. The woman who had spent ten years of her life with me had become a stranger. I felt sorry for her wasted time, resources and energy but I could not take back what I had said for I loved Dew so dearly. Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer now. The next day, I came back home very late and found her writing something at the table. I didn't have supper but went straight to sleep and fell asleep very fast because I was tired after an eventful day with Dew. When I woke up, she was still there at the table writing. I just did not care so I turned over and was asleep again. In the morning she presented her divorce conditions: she didn't want anything from me, but needed a month's notice before the divorce. She requested that in that one month we both struggle to live as normal a life as possible. Her reasons were simple: our son had his exams in a month's time and she didn't want to disrupt him with our broken marriage. This was agreeable to me. But she had something more, she asked me to recall how I had carried her into out bridal room on our wedding day. She requested that everyday for the month's duration I carry her out of our bedroom to the front door ever morning.. I thought she was going crazy. Just to make our last days together bearable I accepted her odd request. I told Dew about my wife's divorce conditions.. . She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she applies, she has to face the divorce, she said scornfully.. My wife and I hadn't had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. So when I carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mummy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly; don't tell our son about the divorce. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside the door. She went to wait for the bus to work. I drove alone to the office. On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn't looked at this woman carefully for a long time.. I realized she was not young any more. There were fine wrinkles on her face, her hair was graying! Our marriage had taken its toll on her. For a minute I wondered what I had done to her. On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I felt a sense of intimacy returning. This was the woman who had given ten years of her life to me. On the fifth and sixth day, I realized that our sense of intimacy was growing again. I didn't tell Dew about this. It became easier to carry her as the month slipped by. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger. She was choosing what to wear one morning. She tried on quite a few dresses but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my dresses have grown bigger. I suddenly realized that she had grown so thin, that was the reason why I could carry her more easily. Suddenly it hit me... she had buried so much pain and bitterness in her heart. Subconsciously I reached out and touched her head. Our son came in at the moment and said, Dad, it's time to carry mum out. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had become an essential part of his life. My wife gestured to our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face away because I was afraid I might change my mind at this last minute. I then held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly; it was just like our wedding day. But her much lighter weight made me sad. On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. I held her tightly and said, I hadn't noticed that our life lacked intimacy. I drove to office.... jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my mind...I walked upstairs. Dew opened the door and I said to her, Sorry, Dew, I do not want the divorce anymore. She looked at me, astonished, and then touched my forehead.. Do you have a fever? She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Dew, I said, I won't divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn't value the details of our lives, not because we didn't love each other any more. Now I realize that since I carried her into my home on our wedding day I am supposed to hold her until death do us apart. Dew seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and drove away. At the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet of flowers for my wife. The salesgirl asked me what to write on the card. I smiled and wrote, I'll carry you out every morning until death do us apart. That evening I arrived home, flowers in my hands, a smile on my face, I run up stairs, only to find my wife in the bed - dead. The small details of your lives are what really matter in a relationship. It is not the mansion, the car, property, the money in the bank. These create an environment conducive for happiness but cannot give happiness in themselves. So find time to be your spouse's friend and do those little things for each other that build intimacy. Do have a real happy marriage! If you don't share this, nothing will happen to you. If you do, you just might save a marriage. Many of life's failures are people who did not realize how close they were to success when they gave up.

2010-04-28T14:59:00.002+08:00

Finally i had my ABC!!!

after so long i wanted to eat!!!

let me know...

2010-04-21T15:55:00.001+08:00

Asthma attacked me on sunday until now...
kanasai one!!!
please go away la...

don't always come find me!!! k?!!

i don't need u to visit me!!!
pek cek!!

2010-04-19T21:13:00.004+08:00

The whole vacation...

i only can say...

I kinda disappointed!!!

I brought something to let someone surprise but in the end...

no surprise and not even a thing happen...

It's just like i giving myself hope that i can actually give surprise...

until the last minute i'm still hoping it's happens...

BUT

the reality is....nothing happening!!!

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HAIZZZ!!!

2010-04-16T19:57:00.003+08:00

This is Tong Shui pictures!!!

hehehehe...
It's success..ANd It's the 1st time i made!!! :P

HAhahahahah...oh yeah...today i cooked again ...
Sister and cousin order from me...so,i cooked today :P
hahahaha...
will let u all taste when we yam cha~ing or ta pao for u all :)

maybe next 10 years u all will see me at the roadside selling Tong Shui XDDD
If there's no job for me :P
too much of accountant in this world,so they don't need any clerk anymore...

I cooked even more than the 1st time...double :P
malas to take the picture la...hehehe...

besides,tomorrow going for vacation...
no time take picture of tong shui and gonna pack my clothes for tomorrow...
some more later going out yam cha with piggies :P

after vacation,school start again....
zZZzzzZzZzzzzZZzzz....
Gonna stress again :(

2010-04-14T14:48:00.004+08:00

Seems like i update my blog one month once....
hahaha...

I can see my blog got a lot of flies.. XD

Sarah,i'm updating now....

Let's talk about my exam...
statistic and advance business calculations should be pass ad...(if fail then i can go to bang wall ad...)

BUT!!!
This year accounting super duper HARD!!!!
even my lecturer said this year paper for accounting very unusual...
if he said like that ,surely fail ad la...
he said if u pass consider very good ad...
PEK CEH!!!

wah...tak payah tengok liao la...
G.O.N.E.!!!

when your gone,the pieces of my heart are missing u~~~~~~

even those good students also said very hard...
what about me?haizzz...

what about now,what about today~~~~~

ACCOUNTING!!!
u gave us the greater nightmare,we ever had!!!

i will REMEMBER u till end of my life!!!

do u remember do u remember~~~~~

:D

2010-03-06T01:38:00.003+08:00

guess what...
i drink beer today :P
I'm blur now...
5% alcohol can made me blur...
1st time ...LOL
can't even walk properly...
hahahahahahaha....

I'm stress!!!
ya...this is the very 1st time i asked them to accompany me to drink beer...
normally i will just say but i won't do it...
actually we yam cha~ing at fairies cafe then plan to watch movie but too late...
sowe went to steak house drink beer ...(yam mum cau)
hahahahahaha.....

Finally halfway i told them the reason why im stress....
hopefully...it's not true....

but u know what....
sarah dance.....
WAHAHAHAHA!!!
this is what made me and ai lene surprise...

That's all for today...
wanna sleep ad...
still blur blur...

but not bad i still can blogging even though im BLUR!!!
XP

2010-02-17T23:50:00.002+08:00

ARGH!!!
What happened to my butterfly wallpaper!!!
I love it so much!!!

My butterfly T.T

Think i need to find another wallpaper already...
i should asked the creator of this wallpaper to update her account...
maybe my butterfly will return...
hehehehe...
If i can't find another butterfly to replace it!!!

ehhh......this year chinese new year very hot!!!!!!
crazily hot!!!
need to bath more than 3 or 4 time...Even 5 times!!!
hate to go out especially the weather is super duper HOT!!!

I'm waiting to meet you :P
I'm waiting chu 8 night!!!
I'm waiting.......

hahaha...crazy already la...
It's time to sleep...
Night :)

2010-02-14T23:25:00.002+08:00

Happy Chinese New Year and Happy Valentine day :P

May the year of Tiger bring happiness and prosperity to you and family.

To those couple stay happy and sweet till end of the day =P

Hmmm...I'm hoping something...HEhehe xD

steamboat with family and enjoy red wine...
hahaha...
First time...
whole face red... xP